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Imagine this. [10 Apr 2009|02:59pm]

You are sitting in the front row of a bus traveling on a mountain. You turn around and see your friends, smiling at you, talking to you, but their words don't reach you. The bus violently swerves, hits the side of the mountain, and tips over. Your window is shattered open, revealing an opening. You hear an ominous creaking and realize the bus is going to fall off. You remove your seat belt and crawl out, look back and clearly see the fear in your friends' faces as they fall to their deaths.

This is a dream that has been bothering my psyche.

I have been wondering -

What makes a human being think that their life is worth more than that of another?
A sense of individuality?

Sometimes, I wish I could go back to that night,
back to that dream,
and die with them.

My question to you is this -
Would you save yourself?
Or would you die alongside those you love?
2 think | itmakesyouthink

[15 Mar 2009|12:09am]

does anyone else get abstract feelings about certain things? i find that certain people/situations/songs/etc provoke a sort of distinctive "atmosphere" in my mind. it's almost like when i see a person with a certain style or manner of holding his/herself, i get a sensation of sorts. like they launch a visual of a continuation of the style of that person.
it mostly happens when i think of periods in my life. each block of time has a kind of flavor, like when i think about it a flash of images roll through my psyche like places i went, people i knew, things i wore, songs i heard, but it's not just a succession of images, it's salient than just a few memories. perhaps i'm making no sense, and perhaps my wording makes it increasingly difficult to understand, but i've just always wondered.

also, sometimes before i sleep i get a brief image of a person. it's always a different person, but it's always someone i've never seen in my life, ever. they usually have some sort of notable feature, like piercing eyes or a receding hairline. i don't know what this means, but perhaps someone else experiences it as well...?
1 think | itmakesyouthink

[08 Dec 2008|07:31pm]


Mod, if this isn't allowed, i'll delete asap.

There are times when I feel out of place..
I got the idea to start a community for those of us who feel sometimes like we don't belong.. anywhere.

A Place To Belong


It's brand new and need members.. [hint hint]

drifting way to far [17 Apr 2008|05:57pm]

[ mood | cold ]

So Many things You should have known.
How many years can i pretend that you have seen it my way.
You never understook that what im looking for...is you.

So very very close..but so far away from each other. My best friend. My worst enemy. My secret companion, my Plastic Surgery and Tattoo PArtner. Pornstars in action. such a lovely joke that last one is.
So hard its seemed to be.

Those words you said to me a few weeks back "she fits"  have echoed in my brain still. They hurt me and yet i refuse to admit outloud that i need you. i crave you.

How disgusting this makes me feel.

scrub away all these awkward thoughts..CUT away every urge to touch you, feel you, breath you in.

Dont you know they buy into your fake smile..your ruse of life everyday?


[12 Apr 2008|11:21am]

[ mood | drained ]

Waking up this morning i pondered a question i was asked last night.
"If you got a penny for your thoughts how much money do you think you'd have?"
Honestly, id have about 10 cents. 
No one really cares about other people thoughts in this town.
Its all about them.

Its when you ask for Their thoughts that you see their true colors.

Its so much easier to hide who you really are and what you live for, then it is to let people know and risk vulnerability.

I risked that all once. I forgot how good it felt to feel alive. That didnt last long though. It gave me a sick sense of realization about the awful lifelong  issues people have to deal with day after day.

"Do you really care about what they think of you?"
No. Yes. Does it matter?
No. I am what and who i am. I dont need to ask approval.
Yes. I want people to see that i really dont care if that call me XXXFAG or not.
Does it matter? It really doesnt.

"Live your life inside a dream and you will get hurt in the worst way"
So they say. 
So Lets be truthful for a second. 
What do we say on subjects like that?

4 think | itmakesyouthink

[18 Feb 2008|10:25pm]

If you could trust a stranger with your life, would you? If i walked up right now to you and told you that i could show you something, something that would take some time, some self-practice, and exploration, and a belief in yourself, and nothing else, but in return i would give you a real chance to change your entire life into the best version that it could be, would you walk away without taking a peek?


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[15 Jan 2008|02:38pm]

Here's food for thought. Why does it bother us so much that it is very possible that each of our lives is not necessary to the ongoing of humanity? In other words, our life probably doesn't mean much. And this bothers every single one of us. But shouldn't it be freedom? Freedom to do whatever we please, because no one is relying on us to follow path A or B. We don't have to conform into our business suits and have mid-life crises at age 25. We can just, live. Live for whatever we want and do whatever we want. But no, instead we prefer to be expected somewhere from 9 or 5 and home in time for dinner. This is what gives us pride.
1 think | itmakesyouthink

[05 Jun 2006|02:20am]


People like Jack Thompson and those damn kids who play video games [21 Jan 2006|02:17am]

I wish I wasn't so cynical as to believe that individual voices are worth nothing. This little issue boggles my mind because there is so much wrong with it.

The disgusting misrepresentation in the press. The ambulance-chasing greed that pushes the agenda of people like Jack.

We aren't just 'kids who play video games.'

We're the kids who watched MTV.

We're the same kids who listened to rap.

We are the entire under-35 generation that is not represented in any major press or any government.

Think about what I'm saying. We rule the technology and development of this society. Yet all the speaking and information and decisionmaking is handed down by the outdated, out of touch generation.

The gap is enormous.

Its not the internet, its not video games, its not music or whatever. Its the whole goddamn digital age. Some people are not fit for it.

Freedom for the fucking sunset years. This country is awash in middle-aged schizophrenics trying to make a world they can't comprehend into a better place for people they don't understand.

We are the messengers. The purveyors of the technology. We are their vassals, we transcribe their madnesses so that our peers may be oppressed by them. It begs for systemic revolution.

I hate Jack in particular for being an antagonist of my preferred subculture. I know that easily there are bigger problems out there. Psychotics like Fred Phelps have hands in government. All voted in by other senile bastards like themselves.

The old, the hysterical, the out-of-touch are winning simply by numbers, god dammit.

We have so much more power than they want to admit, isn't there anything we can DO with it?
4 think | itmakesyouthink

[24 Aug 2005|10:34am]


I do feel for (red) BOB, sometimes you do feel like your talking to a brick wall with some people :P

title or description

some of the other strips are quite good too.


"add to friends list for daily updates mon-fir"

[01 Aug 2005|12:53am]

since religion is a touchy subject i can usually only talk about it with my dad, he doesnt get all huffy puffy when i tell him the things i like to believe instead of what everyone else seems to just pass on. i cant get my mind around going to church and having the bible be recited back to me through different words that mean the same thing. to hear again and again things that have no doubt been changed over this long period of time. man couldnt possibly have kept the story right and straight this entire time. most of the people i know make jesus out to be white. which i guess couldnt be true, he was middle eastern, wasnt he? there's one thing thats been changed and interpreted in a different way and thats only about his race.

i dont care if people disagree with me and think im dumb and naive for making up my own theories that im perfectly happy believing but i dont like to be pushed into trusting things i dont want to believe or dont think could be possible. lets take adam and eve. god made the world then them. where do the dinosaurs come in? im not one to rely on science for everything, things need to be more magical for me but come on. dinosaurs. i like them, where do they come in while adam and eve were having children to make the rest of us?

i dont know. i dont need to know all the answers, im really just a kid, but i just dont want to be wrong, i like believing that when we die if you were an overall good person, maybe not a church goer, or you never prayed in your life, but if you were an overall good person and happy to be on earth for the short numbers of years you were around then you went to wherever you thought was around after death. if you believed in heaven thats where you went however you see heaven to be, a life long party, a quiet beach, church camps and bible study. [id personally like to be reincarnated into a super model] and if you were a bad person whatever you envisioned to be hell, torture, thats where you'd go, until maybe you were changed.

i dont go to church, i dont believe a lot of the mush in the bible, and i am for the most part happy with my theories but i really dont want to be wrong. im so afraid its just like how everyone says, and when i die i'll get to the pearly gates and god will laugh and say "you really think you're getting in, you doubted everything except me, and you only thought of me as a general higher power".

this is probably crazy boring and over talked and my theories are silly and childish so i'll come to a close, i sometimes wish that none of this really mattered, none of my frustrations or tears were real, we were all just sleeping. i sometimes wish none of this, us, none of it was real and dying was really waking up.

A little Lewis Carroll. [21 Jul 2005|08:39pm]

“and the moral of that is—‘Be what you would seem to be’—or, if you’d like it put more simply—‘Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.’ “

poison [16 Jul 2005|05:31am]

[ mood | drained ]

i read a national geographic article about poison and toxicity in a waiting room.

a lot of common sense, but i loved the notices. as a few researchers pointed out, everything is toxic. Minerals and vitamins can kill you if you get enough. a small amount of arsenic is the king of poisons and the poison of kings, but an even smaller amount of it is life-saving chemotherapy.

there's no such thing as a 'toxic' material or a 'non-toxic' substance. this is an abstraction, a description that we use to simplify, and furthermore oversimplify our attempts to communicate.

there are no toxins or non-toxins, just a spectrum of possibility. they are all bound by the same rules, it is merely the moderation or lack thereof that determines the effects. only the ignorant would label arsenic as poison and only the blind would call it a cure. It isn't either of these abstracted terms, it simply is, like everything else.

No sense in giving it labels, especially not false ones.


A little question... [17 Jun 2005|05:23pm]

I'd like to know what people find interesting in another person.
When do you consider someone boring or, on the other side, fascinating/interesting?
What traits make you want to spend time with and talk to someone?

Any personal opinion will be most appreciated.
6 think | itmakesyouthink

[16 Jun 2005|11:00am]

why is it that when you buy gas with a credit card you dont have to sign for it if you are outside, but you do when you go inside?
2 think | itmakesyouthink

1000 Words Game [28 Apr 2005|10:39am]

If a picture is worth a thousand words, then I'm turning quite a profit.

Here's the game:

I post a caption every week or two, and you interpret it visualy. Any medium, any style. Get your draw on, get your camera out. Load up MS paint and shows us what's stewing in that brain pot of yours. Whatever it takes.

All skill levels welcome. Talent is a myth, so I do not accept that as an excuse for not participating.

This is not a judgement community. This is a personal endulgence and an exploration into how various people can interperate a common theme in different ways.

Sound like fun? Sure it does! All are welcome!

Join 1000_words_game today!

what do you think? [03 Apr 2005|01:23am]

[ mood | creative ]

What do you think of this image I threw together? I made it about three months after my brother came out of the closet.
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2 think | itmakesyouthink

First Post [19 Mar 2005|04:53pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Yes I'm new.I decided to join this community because I am often lost in thought and it feels nice to let others know what I'm thinking whether they understand or not.Though it seems very few people here are active,I will try to post regularly.I apologize in advance if I start to contradict myself;what i think often changes with my mood.

2 think | itmakesyouthink

[04 Feb 2005|09:15pm]


(Click here to see "The Fool")
In case y'all don't know, I got this project going on called Morning Haikus.

They're cool.

I post them on my journal as they are produced. I will be publishing many of them in a stylish little booklet this summer. This will be accompanied by a raffle for the opportunity to be the first kid on your block to have one.

So stay tuned.

Transience [24 Dec 2004|09:08pm]


(Click here to see the whole image.)

[07 Dec 2004|12:59pm]


(Click here to see the whole thing)

from the series "Morning Haikus"

I'm not quite sure this belongs here.... [24 Nov 2004|07:18am]

[ mood | contemplative ]

This is about my recent meditation experience. And I have a few questions. I know this might not fit directly in here but maybe a few will know of what I speak of and be able to answer my questions.

After cleansing my soul, heart, and mind, and the surrounding space, I began a certain meditation technique of projecting myself some where else. To do this, I watched myself get up, walk to the bedroom door, open it, and walk out. In order to fully accomplish this, you must imagine every detail like it is in essance, you, actually going there. After walking through the entire house, I stood on a little step outside the front door. All of a sudden it was like, everything around me started spinning. Then, in front of me was a tropical ocean side beach. As I got off the step, and "felt" my surroundings, I was doing things I wouldn't normally do. For instance, I walked around a palm tree and then I shook it. A coconut dropped and I cracked it open to drink its milk. I've never shaken a palm tree to get a coconut and I've never drank from a coconut and have never had the inclination to do so. As I walked around I interacted with the people there, sitting in chairs, under umbrellas, waving and smiling. Then, I escaped into the ocean. I became increasingly overwhelmed by the visuals and emotions I was feeling. After getting lost in the ocean for a while, I walked out, but I was in reverse, almost as though someone had pressed rewind. As I came down everything was like that. Going through the house, I was walking backward and fast. I had no control over this, for I did not want to come back so early.

I was just wondering, if my Spirit Guides felt that I had experienced enough, would they have taken control in order to not overwhelm my soul with such an amazing experience, and great step in my personal meditation? Do they actually know when to say enough is enough for now? Kind of like dictating what I should experience because they know of the future and of the greater good? I was wondering if I must at first take baby sets, when it comes to my meditation and spirit seeking and performing spells. Does anyone know if this could be true? Or has anyone experienced such an occurance? Or if anyone would share some of there personal meditation experience, I think it would be quite helpful.


Some thoughts... [22 Nov 2004|03:47am]

Social equality and social diversity are contrary ideas. The only way to ensure absolute equality is to have absolute uniformity, eg. conformity, the opposite of diversity. No person can claim an affinity for both unless they are being misleading and truly seeking only one or are wholly misguided and absolute in their lack of conceptual comprehension. The two ideas simply cannot coexist.

One aspect of social equality is, of course, economic equality. How can this be achieved? Consolidated power in a tyrannical form. A single body, not absolutely a government, but most likely one, would be the employer of all citizens. Each would get the same monetary payment regardless of work performed. However, how this money is spent would, in fact, lead to inequality as some would squander their money foolishly while others may invest it. So this body must then not pay at all, rather it must control all aspects of society whatsoever to guarantee that no one person does anything that may provide for financial superiority over another. To a similar end, no person can be allowed to advance over another in any way whatsoever, monetarily or otherwise. This ensures social equality. However, it also compromises wholly the idea of the individual and would necessitate mind control constructs to ensure all citizens remain in line and in step with the body and do nothing to speak out against it at any time. And so diversity is a non-happening in this climate.

To contemplate on theory, one may consider the possibility that an appearance of a want for diversity is nothing more than a disguise for a want of control, absolute equality being merely a potential byproduct of that control. Forced diversification will inevitably split all citizens into factions and tear a nation apart. In such an event, a complete takeover by some government or other organization would be called for in order to restore unity. From this point onward, in the best of terms, the nation is plunged into the scenario outlined above. A worse outcome would be divisive inequality with the masses equal within their own sect subserviant to an elite minority in contol of the body as in a monarchy.
2 think | itmakesyouthink

[21 Nov 2004|03:07am]

[ mood | worried ]

Recently a few of my friends broke up with their partners, at least one of which had been in a long-term thing.

It makes me think again of the boi, and of how i'll react if we broke up. Looking at the break-up which is occupying my mind right now... the way they've dealt with stuff is so different.

It makes me worry for the future. And want to love him less so i can't get hurt. Because knowing my luck, it'll be my turn next.

Even though he loves me, i can't make myself stop thinking that.

2 think | itmakesyouthink

[02 Nov 2004|02:02am]

[ mood | tired ]

First time post, i'm afraid. I hope i have the rules and such right...

I'm thinking that sometimes, it is a disadvantage to have a boyfriend who lives many miles away and who i hardly ever see. But in turn, I think that it makes things all the better when I do see him... for I have learnt to treasure him as i never did for anybody else in my life, save my home and my brother.

I think that Elizabethan music can be very soothing.

And sometimes... it's hard to sleep. I keep thinking about how I nagged my parents to light the fire because we were so cold... and yet now, it's generally so warm I don't sleep until 4am.

Thinking gives me headaches, but i'm glad I can do it.


every time i turn around people my age are having intense panic attacks [19 Oct 2004|11:40pm]

this evening santy, brett, and myself went over to onlyonej1's house in groton to spin some wax...from there we proceeded to stop at our man e's spot and roll an l/watch some yankees. about 10-15 min. after blazing (nothing special folks) brett is leaning off his stool. leaning, leaning, leaning *WHAM* right to the floor! it was crazy, nobody knew what the deal was. he realized he had fallen and was able to stagger to his feet. he came to, kind of, then staggered out the door and flat onto his face. bare in mind we were in the middle of the pj's at a friends house who doesn't really need people staggering out of his door and face planting in the grass.

so i'm thinking, is this chit laced? i dunno where the f the trees came from, right? but then i think about it - i was fine e was fine...it can't be. and it's not like any of us are low tolerance cats, and all else that was consumed were some beers while mixing. but we were able to get him up and into a chair inside. at this point, he was pretty with it and we all figured he'd fallen asleep or something(?)

really, we had no clue.

so sitting in the chair he seemed quite a bit better, then twitched as if he was going to puke, and staggered up into the house were e's girl and kids were...oh shit! we all thought he was puking or something.

but he somehow managed to just wash his face and was completely fine again. a lil shooken up, but fine. he then recalled one or two other instances when this had occured. he said he realized they were panic attacks. at least, it was the only thing that made sense. of course i recalled this morning and was a bit bugged out. some heads on my friends list have posted entries about stress, panicking, and just in general life not being too easy in your 20s. and i recall reading an article in utne about it. search for qlc and it's the only one that comes up. unfortunately i don't have an online subscription so i only could view the first paragraph. also, in that paragraph there was a lil wise crack about bloggers (i read the hard copy, an article entitled how blogging ruined my life as well). the point is, is the stress and worry in my life and the life of those around me actually weighing on us (no pun intended) until we fall over?

[09 Oct 2004|12:33pm]

[ mood | accomplished ]

Hello all, I am new. This shall probably be my lone post in this community, I joined so that others may read my journal and perhaps contribute some input on my ideas.

I am Magnus213.



women who try to look younger [06 Oct 2004|12:45pm]
hey! i'm new. just stumbled across here, seems like fun. I had a thought and wanted to share:

just had a couple of women walk past me. They were probably in their late 40's or early 50's. The clothes were trendy. Lots of make-up (i suppose to hide the wrinkles). And boob jobs. I wonder what makes them think that by doing this, they will appear younger. They still look old. Perhaps it's just a symbol of being rich.

My theory: If you've got the money, you can look good.

It's not to say that all rich people look good; the ugly people are the ones who don't use their money to make them look good. ~_^

[14 Sep 2004|02:55am]

This is absolutely horrifying. It outlines a special forces unit that would have the sole purpose of PROVOKING terrorist attack.

And further reading...

Us censorship of UN documents

And really quite a bit of what is on this website...

Little read or censored press

Please tell me someone is as outraged by that as I am.


New here [08 Sep 2004|08:48pm]

No one really seems to update here, but i geuss someone probably still has this on their friends list so the post will be read.

Is it just me, or does being in love make you exponentially less loveable?

I know with me when i like someone i am cool as a cucumber, but then i fall in love and become all those things i hate... controlling, obsessive, jealous, edgy. Is this just me?
2 think | itmakesyouthink

[02 Sep 2004|08:09pm]
wondering why guys can't be after more than big tits and a nice ass =\ meh..
5 think | itmakesyouthink

[31 Aug 2004|02:13pm]



im starting to discover; its better to turn wishes into actions..


at THIS moment [10 Aug 2004|11:20am]

wondering why no one seems to be active in this community

when is my brother getting home

and what is love really?
2 think | itmakesyouthink

at this moment [08 Aug 2004|11:08pm]

[ mood | chipper ]

im thinking about...

how i wish i couldnt break my own heart

why "mountain dew" is called that

why i cant say i love you to anyone but my boyfriend at the time and even then how i can say it and not mean it

how glad i am that me and a person are friends again

i need chapstick

i cant wait to go home tomarrow

and how much i want another friend to be happy because she deserves all the happiness she can get.

2 think | itmakesyouthink

in a sense.. this is me [12 Jul 2004|11:43pm]

Modern Transformation

softly the wind flips loose hairs
strayed from the rest
to torture the face graciously
closed eyes hold patience
the clouds slowly drift away
darting the sun licks at the cheek
the warmth pushes the wind
swiftly changing direction
driving the hairs to dance
the eyes open with the light
glassy but eager with a spark of life
a butterfly striving
to overcome the strength of its cacoon
the scent of new
swirling up around the body
nudging it to move
but it knows
the free do as they please
and things will move along
abstract in time
absurd in rythm
the anarchy of it all
casts great shadows
coloring the spots of the wings
of a beautyful mind

im new [09 Jul 2004|01:04am]

what if i never figure out who i am?

if i told you to hurt me would you?

sometimes i forget my purpose, or if i really have one.
3 think | itmakesyouthink

[07 Jul 2004|05:38am]

[ mood | anxious ]

ok here is it:

buy pouring sugar into a salt shaker you can easily ask your sister what it is. your sister will respond "umm...salt" even tho you know its sugar. therefor you have tricked her!. now ,do you think its easy for people we love (like me and my sister) to fool eachother? i fooled her in this one experiment. but what if she has fooled me too in other parts of life.. hmmm



3 think | itmakesyouthink

[11 Jun 2004|07:59pm]

[ mood | blah ]

Something happened recently that made me think of this..

Is there such thing as true happiness?
Is there such thing as finding the person you love with all of your heart and having them love you back just the same?



3 think | itmakesyouthink

been thinking bout life....run while you still can! [06 Jun 2004|10:59am]

i've been thinking, mainly about life in general and the future. have you ever realized that no matter how hard you try to plan what you're life is going to be like, or how much you dream and wish, you never truly know what's going to happen????????????????????? i know it sounds really stupid and obvious and all, but think about it. i personally have made all these plans for my life, like go to this college, become that person, marry that guy, have those kids, you know, stuff like that. i know i sound like an idiot (again) but i have like, a hobby, of planning out every intricate details of the many lives i'd love to lead. sometimes i think so much about it, that i actually believe it might happen. but then, after i had gotten so far in planning my life, i stopped and actually *thought* about it. i have no clue what'll happen. i have no idea what my life will be like. i havent the slightest idea what i'm going to look, what job i'll have, where i'll be, or even if i'll be alive! for all i know, i could be at school tomorrow, have some sort of columbine experience and die, then NEVER know who i could've become...
1 think | itmakesyouthink

I'm thinking- what happenned to Axl Rose? [26 May 2004|10:02pm]


from "Shadows Whisper Casting Empty Reflections on Cracked Mirrors" my personal poetry collection [11 May 2004|03:57pm]

Unspoken Words

Dear Mom,

I have many things to say,
Many wrongs to right,
Many unspoken words of apology and affection.
I know I haven’t been the child you’ve always wanted me to be,
I know I’ve been stubborn and selfish you can see,
I know you’ve tried your hardest to give me a life you say I deserve,
I know things haven’t turned out as you planned so long ago,
When my name sweetly whispered across your lips sent shivers down your spine,
I know things have been extremely rough and they don’t always end how they should,
I know you try to make things better,
I know you wish things to change for us,
I know it’s hard.
I’m sorry for all the problems I’ve caused,
I’m sorry for all the moments we wish to forget,
I’m sorry for the times I turned against you slapping you in the face and stabbing you in the back,
I’m sorry for the hurt I’ve created and am trying to mend the wound every day,
I’m sorry for the nonsense games we played,
For I know now that you’ve done this out of love and I always thought you were out to get me,
I know now the wisdom in your harsh words,
I understand the strength in your smacks,
I know it took me a while but I started thinking for myself and now I understand,
Growing each day is my knowledge of your teachings,
And the wealth I reap from having you here with me today,
I thank you for everything you’ve taught me both good and bad,
I thank you for everything you’ve given me and the things you always tried,
I thank you for the beauty I see everyday because of you and your struggled decisions,
I know it’s hard,
But this is life,
And I love you so much,
Thank you for always being there,
And loving me all the way.

Love your one and only daughter,
Brooke Lindsay

just wanna know... [25 Mar 2004|01:49pm]

[ mood | curious ]

just outta curiousity, does anyone know of any livejournal communities for the color purple? or polka dots? like a community all about clothing of the color purple or polka dots....or somthing like that????? a community all bout the color purple, anything purple..HELP!


I WISH I WA 50 FT TALL [17 Mar 2004|10:02pm]

[ mood | indifferent ]

i think hello kitty and spongebob squarepant are SO innocently perverse. i love it. they are so innocent kid oriented, but when u look at it on more thoroughly it just seems so perverse...if any of you watch spongebob, i dunno, it has some adult humor in it....thats what makes me love spongebob. and HELLO KITTY...Hello Kitty.... that just sounds naughty..


2 think | itmakesyouthink

ohhhhhhhhh [16 Mar 2004|07:38pm]

[ mood | calm ]

im new top this community, and i think more then most people...too much at times...and im saying hello! im a newbie!!! ill be posting many things i think bout...be prepared. :)

2 think | itmakesyouthink

[08 Feb 2004|12:27am]

Hey. I'm new to the community. I got bored today and *poof* i joined. So, greetings and salutations! My name is Becky, but you can call me whatever you want. (B, becca, bacon, beckalacious, ecca, chapstick - hell i dont really care). I like to think and i like to ponder. I think that's all that really matters here, so let's get to it!

i have decided! [05 Feb 2004|06:38pm]

[ mood | giddy ]

i have decided that i am going to post, sure i've only posted once, but w/e..now its time for some thought provokers.
have you ever had like memories, that u can't clearly remember and u know they are yours, but you can't be sure that they are YOURS as in, they belong to the past you or sumthin? my cousin has and i have too...i remember things that, well i dont no..things that i know as mine, but not the now me. i am so confused. like i remember certain things that 'happened' a long time ago, that involve older people i always 'remember' as my sisters yet when i ask them about it, they tell me it never happened. and i am always so confused because in my 'memories' they were old enough to remember. do you think maybe its a memory from a past life and my 'sisters' are my past lives relations yet years of trying to clear the memory have caused me to think they are my current sisters? weird........and then theres like so many questions i have. every single freaking person in my family has dark brown hair and brown eyes, yet my oldest sister has blonde (not dyed) hair and blue eyes *not contacts*...freaky, huh? and shes my dads kid so its not like it was some other father...really weird...anyways, i g2g, ~l8r

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hi [26 Jan 2004|06:28pm]

[ mood | contemplative ]

hi, i just joined and well...yea...i thought this place looked kinda cool..some of the things you guys were mentioning also seemed really interesting...speaking of interesting things, i thought i'd bring this up. my cousin and i were talking and she brought up this really crazy idea. do you think it is possible that our entire lives and world is one person from another planet's dream? then when we sleep, the dreams we don't remember are their actual life? like, they live on some distant planet and dream of this place called earth, where all these things happen...its kind of weird. i mean, it is possible to dream and know you're dreaming, so isn't it possible to be in a dream and know that you're there, altho its not your dream? i personally have had lucid dreams, as they're called, where its like a nightmare and i tell my mom to pinch me and when she does, and it doesn't hurt, i tell her to wake me up.. of course my dream mom thinks im crazy, yet i know its a dream. it's kind of weird....i guess that's it...l8r~ Jenn

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Recycled from my journal. [08 Jan 2004|08:31pm]

I love Meier's class. Today we discussed a poem on death, then the discussion shifted into holistic philosophy. So, I got another idea that everything in this universe is linked. Like one thing you do affects everything. For example, if you kill a bug now that'll affect something that'll happen in a century, whether it's good or bad. I kind of thought this before, but thought, pfft whatever. It's so cool how a single action can affect all of humanity. Just being here affects it, and it seems like no one I know will make much of a difference in this world. But you never know.
So, this poem described that the world is a big tomb. It's obvious because so many have died. It's a scary thought, though. Maybe the world after death has no boundaries, like even if so many people die, it'll still be in perfect condition and there is no way the dead can be overpopulated. Meier was also saying how the ancient Egyptians worshipped those beetles, like in The Mummy. The beetles put their eggs in shit, literally, and roll it around. Isn't that weird?! And the Egyptians think that's how the world is - we're all on this planet that is rotating by something, like a god. And this planet is all shit, again literally. We also discussed that every question anyone has can be answered by nature, and nature can be a god. Anyway, his lectures are super enlightening; I can capture, but I can't seem to display the brilliance of it.

[17 Dec 2003|09:37am]


Once upon a dark and stormy morning, I decided to leave behind everything that I knew.
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[03 Dec 2003|03:06am]


sign the gay/lesbian marriage petition. it'll be the best thing you've ever done. then send it to all your friends.

think about it.

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